Somewhere Somehow

Standing in our silence
I hear my heart beating
And if only I could choose
Id stay here with you
But hold me ti’l the train is leaving
Somewhere down the line
After you’re gone from sight
Our love will be the same
And, whispering your name,
Ill cling to you with all my might

Let me dream of you
But its true
And wake me up when this is over
Love will be there when this is over and

Chorus:
Somewhere far beyond today
I will find a way to find you
And somehow thru the lonely nights
I will leave a light in the dark
Let it lead you to my heart

There’s a love inside us
Deep down inside
That goes without saying
Don’t say a word
But Ill tell you just the same
And that love will fan the flame
And that flame will warm the heart that’s waiting

You are mine and Ill wait for you my love
You are mine it may take some time
Even if it takes a lifetime
Tell me you’ll wait

And somewhere alone
I will be praying you home
I know that somehow our love

Our love will lead me to your arms

Michael Smith and Amy Grant

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MALUNGKOT BA ANG CHRISTMAS MO?

Its Christmas time once again..
Lahat ay busy sa pag shopping gifts.. exchange gift dito, exchange gift doon..
Party dito, Party doon, kainan, dito, may kainan doon..
Ang resulta paubos na ang Pera.. hala.. gastos pa..whew!!!
Ano ba talaga ang tunay na dahilan ng Pasko? Ano ba ng diwa na nakapaloob dito?
Tama ba gumastos ng gumastos para Sumaya lang?
Masaya ka ba naman, o masaya habang nasa kasayahan lang
E paano pagkatapos?
Yung bang dapat mong pasayahin, napasaya mo ba?
Nag share ka ba sa mga talagang dapat bigyan?
Sana ngayun paskong ito, maalala natin ang tunay na diwa ng Pasko
Ang pagdiriwang ng kaarawan ni Jesus Christ,
Ang tumubos ng mga kasalanan natin…

Hindi na kailangan maging malungkot kung paubos na ang pera,
Dahil gumastos ng gumastos..
Trabaho na ulit, ipon ulit, baguhin ang pag uugali..
Lalo na sa paghawak ng pera

Huwag malungkot kung wala ka pang lovelife
Darating din yan.. malay mo makikita mo na sya mamaya lang =)
Basta positive ka lang..
Malay mo yan ang blow out sayo ni Jesus..

Be happy na..


Merry Christmas sa inyo lahat..

Christmas is not Christmas without Jesus Christ

FORGIVENESS – TO OTHERS & TO YOURSELF

Its been a long while since I stopped blogging.. & here I am again..

Sometimes in our life, there are people who hurt are feelings deeply, truly & madly.. (sounds familiar).. & it keeps hurting inside. Sometimes it’s a member of a family, a friends or love one.. (sakit noh).. sometimes a promise of heaven & earth from someone special and dear to us.. then suddenly they will leave you hanging in the middle of nowhere.... & sometimes a betrayal from someone you love.. but even though I keep on saying I already forgive the person who hurt me deeply, often times I remember what the person did to me, its annoying.. grrrrr.

Well, I think if we forgive the person who hurt us, we should also put God in it. That God may help us ease the pain, little by little. Accepting the reality and the truth. That there are things that is really not meant to happen, whether we like it or not. In this so called life, everything has a purpose, who knows the time, who knows what will happen next, except God, He knows everything. In just one click, everything will stop, and for some it’s the end.. but for those who believe in God, the plan or purpose is happening. I believe that we should also learn how to forgive our self, our mistake, and move on. Sometimes the feeling of guiltiness resides in our heart & in our mind that bothers us for quiet a time, for a long time or even in our entire life. Jesus died for us, for our sins, he suffered a lot for us, so, we should also forgive our self & reflect, learn and continue to Love & live, continue to hope. God will help us to get thru. I know & I believe in it. Hope this will make sense..

God bless..

Hope

I was in the middle of nowhere
Thinking of where to go
Standing alone against the driving rain
As I search for the happiness
The dawn was listening to my heart
The light begins fade The stars smiles at me again
As the moon shines on hope

I ask my angel why
As tears began to fly
Angel smile was so uplifting
Until when will you stay

My angel was so good
He let hope shines on me..
My God from above is smiling at me
As he gave his Angel & Hope

To Shines & Guide upon me.
One day I’ll see the light
One day you will know why
That God is always there
Preparing for his plan
Because he knows the best
For each one..

THE PHILOSOPHY OF HAPPINESS

I remember my college day best friend Russell Mark who already passed away way backed April 1993. He was so sweet, very determined, goal oriented, friendly, dedicated, very accommodating, and much more he was like an dictionary when it comes to English lessons. He was good in programming. We always ate together during lunch time. But his life is so short. Of course we missed him. Anyway his father sent me an article about the Philosophy of Happiness.. I just want to share this one article…

THE PHILOSOPHY OF HAPPINESSBY RODOLFO CEMENTINA CELESTIAL
HAPPINESS has been man's infinite goal to attain ever since he came into existence. He was created in the Garden of Eden without anything behind his past that will linger in his mind. He was created as an adult without neither any childhood nor any experience of adolescent. Just a man in the center of everything. And everywhere is a good thing. Yet peace of mind is in him. But then, when loneliness came, he began to feel the need of companionship. He couldn't live alone. A feeling of dependency. Then came his mate and they live happily from day to day. Until one-day doubt developed into their minds as to their existence and what else there is. Although contentment is within their reach, they couldn't just go along without satisfying that crave for more...satisfaction of the doubts. Peace of mind looses its strength when doubt begins. It bothered them until it is no longer gone.

In this great story ever written, we see that man is always in the state of discovery. Although he knows that he has everything possibly in his hands, he will sacrifice what he has as long as his eagerness is satisfied; whether it is bad or good for him. Future will tell. There is no point of argument as to the knowledge of bad or good, because man is created for goodness. However, it is a matter of fulfilling what is inside his state of mind. For it is presumed that man attain his temporary peace of mind if his yearning is done. Which mean whether it will be his downfall or rise it doesn't matter for as long as he gets what he desires` This is also true to world leaders king, dictators and emperors.
Man begins at birth. He always have the childhood experience. But, who can recall what he did when he was two years old? Even your parents cannot relate now what you did after a span of thirty years. Because our faculty of memory is active only for ten years, not unless a particular experience influence our present life. And yet it is not accurate especially if the state of being keeps changing from time to time. You might well say, that you want to remember those happy moments when you were young. But it belongs to the past, it will never come back. You will try to bring it back, it will never materialize, Because the participants during those days are no longer the same. They now play a different role. So are you. Even the tune the you once sing, and now keep humming seems do not belong. Is it because of the time? Of the people? Or you? Or the essence?

HAPPINESS IS A STATE OF MIND. It is not even the feeling of the heart although it is the feeling of the soul. It is the spirit within us that controls our moods, our life. It even controls our youth. No one can ever say that he have not experience to be happy. But when was it? Can you still remember the time when you are truly really happy? Is happiness laughter? Is it beautiful things? Or is the fulfillment of goal? Is success happiness? Happiness is not a feeling. It is not even success, for success has no end because it is always the beginning, it is not even the beautiful things around you, for it wears off. And it is not laughter either for it has no sound. It is you as one.

HAPPINESS IS LIKE A CHILD. He lives a life of no pretensions. If he wants to cry because of pain he does. Whatever he wishes to do he does. If he wants to know about something, he discovers and learns from it. He is free. But when he is being bawled or restricted, that is the time he feels that he is no longer free. A morality that is being dictated to him, not his own, but spooned and nailed into his mind. And yet these ethics guide him in his life, moreso, other principles made by him to domesticate his life. Man begins to be lonely when he is being suppressed or ruled against his will. Although it had convinced him, his opinion remains.
Love is happiness. It is also a state of mind and state of the heart. How can it be bliss to be in love? Is it a matter of sexual adventure? Sex is an exhibition of love in its beauty. Sex is not lust. Love is something else. It is a mutual relationship between two parties, irregardless of gender, status, age or whatever physical attributes. Somehow there must be a receiver and a donor. Love cannot be taken if not given. Giving it away can only possess love.

Man’s life is dominated by his faith. For man cannot live without this factor. Faith is not religion but it influences the inner emotion of man. The tenet that he receives from religion, a belief that binds the spiritual nature of man to an omnipotent being, which makes him dependent and responsible, together with certain practices that go with it. Faith is a belief without physical evidence.or sometimes a confidence in one being, statement or anything as trustworthy. And yet if there is no faith, there is no religion. Faith is happiness. Although it makes man dependent and mortal, it merely develops his wisdom toward his fellowmen. It encourages him to discover himself. To look beyond unto him to find out what makes him live and what will make him die. Faith is also tomorrow, thus happiness always remain with us until tomorrow.

Being alive is happiness. Watch a baby as old as 7 months. He doesn’t have any intriguing emotions, nor does he care for anything, nor does he ask. His mere concern is self-survival. Since birth he strives for existence without any knowledge of it, maybe instinct, but he is dependent from his parent or somebody else more able than he is. He is confident that when he cries a supporting loving hands will be extended to care for him. And yet he is happy because he doesn’t have any inhibition or emotional block. He doesn’t entertain anger nor hate as long as attention is given to him, a new life is rejuvenated to a new dimension. Thus, man must know how to live, and how to control and utilize his emotions and his weaknesses. Better to open his character and submit his ego for everybody to know him better. Person who confesses his secrets to his best friend is happy and secure person. Because he unloaded the burden in his chest. No one can dare admit knowing thyself without exposing himself first who he really is. Peace is done when truth is outspoken.

And now there is no real happiness but a temporary feeling of remorse. We have everything under control until the time we found out that time, life, future, even our breath is not self powered but it is only for our management and adjustment. Can you dictate yourself when to breathe and hold it for life? Can you tell the future and foretell when you will die? Can you create the image of your baby inside the womb? These are acceptance of weakness of being human. That there is more to know and to believe to be happy. So in the end it is acceptance of what you are and what you believe in.

Who is that Girl?

What a wonderful day. Someone was seating in the couch and maybe a new employee. Quiet silent,a little skinny and innocent looking young girl. Maybe a new graduate searching and looking for an exciting experience. She seems so strong inside but when she smiles, that was the time she captivated my heart. But I need to be silent about it, since the enemies and the predator that bites the dust were there, I can sense something wrong in them. Captivating though, she seem so aloft. But what really excites me was the way she stares and I can read something in her eyes though I need to figure it out more.

Now, I will wait, while the world is watching,.

7/11 Hotdog for break.. that will break the momentum for a moment.

Resigning from work...

Its really hard if you decide to resign from work..
a lot of reason.. working environment.. personal problems... growth… financial.. a lot of things.

But there’s life after leaving the company.. what the heck.. if your not happy anymore.. anyway there is always a purpose… (ang gulo-gulo ng management..)

Kind of sad.. I’ll miss the friendship.. those who become part of my life in this company.. I’ll surely miss my friends… those who had left already…miss ko na kayo... I miss them all “lalo na ang gimik at sayawan pati ang beer, hehe..(but I don’t like the taste of beer! Hard na lang, imported ha (“,)…. sabagay wala na kayo dito.. hehe..

February 14

FEBRUARY 14... It was quiet afternoon after a hard day work.. seems so gloomy and the melancholy sound of the wind while it is started to get dark is so blue while striking in my eyes.. As I pass by at the Greenbelt Church, some couples sweetheart are so happy, so sweet, it is because Valentines Day once again.. and I knelt down and pray again that Monday Afternoon.. I usually go to mass every Wednesday 7pm, but since I was there, i went inside and pray... Afterwards, i walk again seeing a lot of people rushing, happy, texting, calling, how sweet.. well, what can I do.. I'll just look around and observe.. after that, i bought a new pair of shoes and luckily it was a sale one at Landmark Dept. Store that time.. Again.. i have to walk and go home after buying.. while walking, thinking of what i'll do next, i was thinking of going home, walking at the connecting path to SM Station that night.. When i was in SM ground floor, well again everyone is busy buying something, texting, waiting.. I got amazed with the opening of new fastfood outlets with balloons & some decorations, but I have to go home, anyway you can find them anywhere, Chowking, Jollibee and Mcdo. But some force are pushing me up to go upstair and checked it out, which I really don’t know.. so I went up, check the outlet at Mcdo, one crew is singing, oooohhh, sounds i don't know,heheh.. and then I went to third floor.. I went straight to Chowking and bought Congee which is 15.00 pesos only plus 1 ice tea that cost 10 pesos & then the cashier charged me for 26.00 pesos, "e wala pa ngang sweldo e!!"so I sit down.. the pathway is direct to entrance of MRT Station.. after 15 seconds of sitting I think.. May SUMABOG!!@!#!!! It was like an earthquake, shaking the third floor.. my heart beats fast, don’t panic ..calm down!!! grabe eh ni hindi ko natikman yung lugaw e pati ung ice tea!!! people panic.. only one way out, to the scalator.. & take note!! no fire exit!!

Imagine if I go straight to the station? exact time of going up to the third floor & or going to ride a bus to Alabang.. I'm a dead meat.. or SUGATAN! I’ll be standing there or riding in that bus.. (FYI.. the bus exploded is going to Alabang RRCG & Roval – Epass yan.. lagi ko sinasakyan kasi mabilis walang tigil-tigil kahit hindi aircon!!!)

God is so Good to Me.. for unknown reason, not my usual routine, I went up to third floor & eat for no reason.. I don't how you call it? Luck, faith.. I don't know.. what I only believe is that God is with me all the time.. Thank You God for protecting me.. To you is the Praise & Glory.. Now and Forever AMEN..

Please also pray to for all the Victims to get Justice..

Thank you for the prayers whatever it is..